Why did I write a Book on such depressing afflictions?

* A side bar minute…. If you want more information about the many afflcitions we face each day in our lives like: self doubt, anxiety, fear of failure, depression, and even hopelessness, go to the top of this site and click on my other site, www.depressionsuprressed.com. There are many articles there on how to cope with these crippling demons. Go back and forth between the two sites and receive more information than you ever dared to ask for.

Now that I am posting excerpts from, Close Encounters of the Heavenly Kind: Through BumpersStickers on my new free online newsletter I have been asked by several readers as to why would I write this type of book? It is about depression, self doubt, anxiety and fear.

It is because I went through depression, self doubt, anxiety, fear, and even considered suicide. I have been in the trenches! I know what it is like. Who better to ask, than one that has been there and done that.

I looked for any books written by laymen who also had been in the trenches. You know what I found? Very few books are written by anyone but pastors, ministers, religious “experts,” counselors, etc. I do not think many of them can relate. They were taught how to help people with these afflcitions, but many have no idea how the person actually feels. Wouldn’t you want someone that is talking about your problem with you to at least have gone through the muck and mire like you have?

I decided that after I turned my life over to God, that I needed to share with others how I got out of the quicksand. I wanted to share my low spots so they could see I was there with them at one time.

I sent my manuscript out to several knowlegable people on this type of subject, and they like the honesty , and the sincere compassion I share with my readers. They feel that this will reach more people than having them read a book from someone like Sigmund Frued.

Many of the people can not afford to go to a counselor, or a psychiatrist. Therefore they are looking at the shelves to find help. I think more people will want to read a book that is on their level.

Sooooo. Sign up for my free newsletter by going over to the right side bar, and clicking on “Join my free email newsletter.” Then put in your email address and you too will receive excerpts free of charge. If you know anyone that may need help with their emotions, or are going through mental stress, show them how to sign up on this site.


I have had many comments on the other pages of the newsletter too. The travel page is getting the most comments. I posted yesterday on the travel page and here are some comments I received:

1. What a hoot!!

2. I couldn’t stop laughing.

3. You need a babysitter when you travel.

4. My wife and I loved your humor, and your interesting comments on your travels.

Let me give you a clue as to why they are all saying what they are saying. I went on a trip to El Paso, Texas around New Years Eve. (AND I came back alive) I had a horror level adventure at the Portland, Oregon airport. Would you believe I left my ID in the airport parking lot, and didn’t have time to go back and get it? Holy moley Batman, I had quite an adventure trying to get through the security. You will have to sign up to find out further happenings on the same trip. That newsletter will come out in a few days.

I also have a resource page that has articles from newspapers from all over the world that discuss the same afflictions we have been mentioning. People really seek out that page.

Finally, I have a sports page. It is soooo much fun to write. I am mostly an Oregon State University fan. Most of my postings will be on their sports programs, but I am a open to what ever any of you may send me. I will look at it and decide if it is worth printing.

Time to hit that famous pile of hay. It is eight minutes after midnight, and I am slowly melting like in the Wizard of OZ.

Please comment on any things I say. I need feedback from you to let me know there are live people out there.


Why Did I Write a Book? To Save My Life!!

(If you are looking for the Beaver Path Finder, you will need to go over to the side bar on the right and click on the “Subcribe to my newsletter,” icon, and then put in your email address. The first Path Finder will come out by Friday.)

This heading may seem a little sensational. It may look like I made the title up to get you hooked to read further. I did not. I wrote a book, and it did save my life. Be sure to sign up for my newsletter to find out why the book saved my life, and read what it is about.

It is not for the faint of heart. It is uplifting, but it talks about self doubt, fear, hopelessness, depression, and anxiety.

I know, how could a book be uplifting when the topics are self doubt, fear, hopelessness, depression, and anxiety?

To give a one sentence synopsis of the book:

I was on the verge of suicide, and God showed me a way to overcome it.

I do hope you will subscribe to the newsletter. It only takes a second. There will be other pages/links in the newsletter.

There will be a sports page/link where I share news from Oregon State University sports. There will be other sports discussed too. The very first newsletter will be coming out this week. The wait is over. I am putting the fnal touches on it, and it should be out before Friday of this week.

There will be a page/link where I talk about all of my travels. I have been all over Asia, and traveled many of the United States following the Beaver’s football team. There are some very outstanding views in this country. There are some very funny stories. There will be thoughts on what I saw and how I felt when I stood on the actual last big battle ground of the Civil War.

Other discussions will be of countries like: Singapore, Thailand, Korea, Hong Kong, and Japan.

I was able to pet one of the most famous winning Kentucky Derby horses of racing history; meet some wonderful people in Louisville, Kentucky; thought I was going to die riding a bus along highway 101; walked through Hearst Castle; watched a football game with a huge crowd of 109,529 people; had people yell at me that I was tiger bait; walked down Bourbon Street in New Orleans with beads being thrown down to me; had a hot springs for a swimming pool; almost got thrown off a dock for not wanted to pay the dock fee, and was amazed at all the history in Boston, Mass.

This is just the top of the iceberg of what the traveling page/link will have. I have many good memories, and some bad memories to share with you. Subscribe, and the adventure will begin.

There will be a resource page/link that I will use to post actual articles from newspapers from all over the world, pertaining to your mental health.

This is finally a reality of a long time dream of mine. I have wanted to write a book about my afflictions, share my travel adventures, AND be able to talk about OSU all at the same time. This website, and my newsletter are doing just that.

This area will slowly be transfered over to discussion of the book, Close Encounters of the Heavenly Kind Through Bumper Stickers.

Yes, there will many times when I discuss other things. I have some articles I have written. Some have been published in magazines. The title of my latest artice in, The Christain Journal Magazine, was called, Stop the World and Let me off, I am Tired of Going Round and Round. It told the story of the lowest time in my life. I will be posting that article here soon.

I suggest you also sign up for the RSS feed. When you do you will get notices of when I have posted on this site. Then you can come here and read what I have written. The RSS feed is at the beginning of any post including this one. You just click on it and follow the directions. Your notices will come at the head of your Explorer or Explorer Express Favorites on your email page. It will just to the right of the word “Favorites.” It may come from other places if you do not have Explorer.

Some of the other articles that I will be posting are very timely with the Holidays coming up:

  1. The top 5 ways to Face the Dark Side.
  2. The Top 10 Ways to Turn That Frown Upside Down.
  3. The Top 5 Ways to Always get up After you Fall.
  4. The Top 5 Ways That Success Does Not Guarantee Happiness.
  5. The Top 5 Ways to Support Someone in Need.
  6. The Top 5 Ways to Eliminate Negative Thoughts.
  7. The Top 5 Ways to Stop Tearing Yourself and Others Down.
  8. The Top 5 Ways to Relieve Stress.
  9. Showing Sympathy Can Uplift Even the Most Downtrodden,
  10. How to Move From Your Home of Depression.

I have many other articles to share.

Be sure to subscribe!  Do it now, along with the over 200 hundred people who have done so far in the first month of existence. The first newsletter will come out this week, and if you haven’t subscribed you will miss out on the very first exclusive newsletter.

Beaver fans!!! Do not walk away because you are uncomfortable with what the topics could be on the website or newsletter. When you subscribe you have the choice of immediately going to what ever page you want. There are links there. You also have the choice to opt out anytime you want.

First of all, the website or newsletter will not bite you! It is good stuff to help you and others that you feel will benefit from it. If you know of someone who needs reassuring, tell them to come to this site. I have had people email me at my blog at, www.depressionsuppressed.com and tell me that what I shared was just what they needed.

Got to run…. I have a busy day ahead of me putting the finishing touches on the first newsletter. Sign up now!!


The New Catagory Called, “New Book Discussion.”

I thought I would share with you how the book, Close Encounters Of the Heavenly Kind: Through Bumper Stickers, got started, and what feelings I had as I wrote it.

This may be a little long, but if you read it all the way through you will have a much better understanding as to where I am coming from when I talk about the book, Close Encounters of the Heavenly Kind: Through Bumper Stickers.

In 2001 many things happened to me that lowered me into the muck and mire. I am skipping the worst thing that happened to me that almost ended my life to share with you about my father dying. I know, how could there be anything worse? His dying had a tremedous impact on how my life was heading towards my own destruction, but there were worse things that happened. Especially since it was the year of 9-11!

My father died on May 4th, 2001. I hadn’t been very close to him for many years, because he and my mother divorced when I was only about six. My dad remarried, and there were several children in the new family. He spent all of his spare time with them.

I can understand how that would happen with all the pressures of trying to please so many different kids, but I felt left out in the cold. I was only a little guy, and I needed a dad.  I didn’t have that dad for over fifty years. I was 62 when he died.

I was told that he had a stroke. I wondered what my thinking would be when I saw him. I got into my car , and got to the hospital as fast as I could. He was in the emergency room when I got there. I came to his side. He was awake, and was able to talk. He gave me a big smile, and I melted right on the spot. I hadn’t ever seen that smile before. He wasn’t a man that showed much emotion.

I walked up to him, and we conversed for a few minutes, and then they took him up his hospital room. I got up to the room, and he was still awake. I went out to the nurse, and asked her if there were any special instructions, and she said, “He is not to have any water. It will get in his lungs, and he will get pneumonia.”  I went back inside an sat by the bed. He reached out his hand gesturing that he wanted to hold my hand. I broke down at that moment, but he couldn’t tell. He had broken his glasses when he fell at his home after the stroke hit. 

I was with him most of that day, and through the evening. My brother had come, and we both were in the room with him along with several of the children from the second marriage.

We all parted later that evening so he could have some rest. The next day I came early.  He woke up when I came into the room. He told me, “I need a drink, my throat is very dry.” I wasn’t sure what to do. He wasn’t suppose to have any water, because it may cause pneumonia. I decided that he was 86, and he was suffering, so I compromised. I told him that all I could give him was a ice cube to melt in his mouth. I gave him one He showed that big smile again. I can still see that smile today when I think of him.

Later that day several of the children from his second marriage came in. The first thing my father said to them was, “Doug is my water boy.” I was overhwlemed. He is a huge sports fan, and for him to say I was his water boy, made me very proud. My father had accepted me into his world of sports.

Things got much worse as the day went on. His kidneys were failing. He needed to drink a lot of water to save himself, but if he did pneumonia would surely come. The doctors decided to try to help him without the water. I got a call later that night, and they said my father had passed away.

I was very saddened. I had found the father I had never had for over fifty years, and he had to leave me to be with the Lord.

Even today I can hear his voice saying with excitement, “Doug is my waterboy!”


I will share with you on my next post, the other things that piled up on me in 2001. It was the worst year of my life.

This will be some of the writing that I will be doing in the new newsletter. I will slowly share with you thoughts right from the book, Close Encounters of the Heavenly Kind: Through Bumper Stickers. Then actual excerpts will be coming to you through the newsletter. There will still be the OSU section of the newsletter. There will still be a section to share my travels. There will be a resource section to give you place to go to find out more about ways to help those who have depression, self doubt, fear, or hopelessness.

The newsletter will be an uplifting newsletter. Let me assure you, the excerpts will give you new hope.  You will want to share them with anyone you know that is suffering with any of the afflcitions I will be talking about. In others words, this newsletter is for you, but tell as many people that you know that needs to read it to subscribe right away. It will give them a new look on how to have a happy ife.

It will be a few weeks before the actual newsletter is up and running. I am working with Constant Contact, one of the tip emailing companies in the world. That is why I am urging you now to susbcribe. I need to get the OSU material in the website newsletter to save me a lot of time and weariness,. I want all the OSU readers to get subscribed so they will not miss one OSU report. I will be running the OSU report ALL year this time. I have always stopped in February, after the recruits are announced. Now I will be covering baseball, softball, and the other sports that go right up to June. Then I will be concentrating on what the sports program is doing, and how I feel they can improve. Of Course there is spring football too!

I also need to get started sharing my book with you. There will one chapter for each newsletter. You will have a real feel of the book by the time it actually is out in the market for sale. BUT, only you that subscribe will have the feel. Those who do not subscribe to the newsletter, will have to wait until the book is for sale to find out about it.

Enough rambling for tonight. I can go on forever sometimes, at least that is what Charlotte tells me!